This past Saturday, November 8, was my baby boys first birthday. I can hardly type that without tears falling down my cheek. Not because I am unhappy but simply because as a mom it is so emotional when your baby makes such big milestones. I am filled with all kinds of emotions as I think back on the past year of his little life. I mean accepting that he is now one and no longer my baby (lets face it he will always be my baby) is a hard thing for me. I have no idea how I will survive him going off to college let alone getting married. I started a journal when my daughter was born and I did the same for my son on the day he was born. I wrote them each a letter the day of their birth and each year on their birthday I write them another one. I thought and I hope that one day they will enjoy reading the memories and stories I write to them in their books. I thought in honour of my little mans birthday I would share a little part of my letter to him on here.

 

My sweet baby boy,

I can remember the moment I first laid eyes on you as if it were yesterday. You were the sweetest little thing with a head full of dark hair and I knew right then and there I would love you forever. I am writing this letter to you as you nap peacefully in your crib and I can’t help but think of all the memories we have made together this past year. I feel so lucky to have spent the past 365 days loving, snuggling, cuddling, teaching, caring for and enjoying you. You are such a loveable little man that has a smile that can light up a room. You are a quiet boy except when your sister is not around, then you are a chatty little guy. You are definitely a mommys boy and I love that. You are a solid little man who is quickly becoming bigger than his big sister. You and your sister are best friends. As your mommy it makes me so happy to see how you and your sister love each other. She is so protective of you and you love to just watch her and follow her around. She makes you laugh by being silly and you have such a contagious laugh. Being your mommy is the best thing ever. I am so thankful that God chose me to be your mommy and I will never take that for granted.  My sweet boy I want you to know that this world is a cruel and unfair place. You will experience pain and heart break and I wish so badly I could protect you from it all but I want to remind you that we have something better to look forward to than life here on earth. As much as mommy and daddy love you Jesus loves you even more. I pray that one day you will choose to love Jesus with your whole heart and that you will chase hard after him. I pray that you experience lots of fun and exciting things and that you are not afraid to try new things. Never be afraid to fail my love because from failing you can learn so much. As I rocked you to sleep last night I held you extra long. I just wanted to hold you and smell you. I wish I could bottle up each day with you so I never forget how you are right now. Life goes by so quickly and you are growing and changing daily. As we celebrate your first year of life today we are also celebrating all the things you have accomplished and learnt this year. I know this next year will be another fun year where we will do fun things, go fun places and make tons of memories. I love you Cove and nothing you ever do can change that. I promise to always be here cheering you on and supporting you in any way I can. I will love you forever my love bug!

Love,

Mommy